Frustrated

Bismillahirahmanirahim...

July 25, 2009- In the early morning of Saturday, i was preparing myself to hang out wit naqibah n usrah members. i was really excited. our planning is to go to TS for bowling. unfortunetly it did not be like we are already planning.. it was really..really...really frustrated...when all that we have been planning does not work as we have plan. after we cannot to fulfill our intention for bowling, later we were choosing some place and having some discussion there. many types of question that i am asking to my usrah group especially to my naqibah. naqibah aswering all my questions with patience and wisdom way.. during lunch together wit naqibah n others, abah called. Abah asking where i am going..he worried. i said i am with my usrah group. he told me that he did not understand wat i am talking about. hmm i do not know how to explain it to him. sad. i pray in my heart that hopefully one day abah will know, and understand with what i am doing now.. showing me the right way of life yaa Allaah...Aamee..n

At that night, Yasmin and i conducting the program for college students. we are going to Masjid Wilayah, KL for Forum Bicara Ad-Deen organised by Institut Kefahaman Islam Malaysia. when we arrived there, there were many of students coming from many IPTA n IPTS to gain Allah's knowledge...many type of people that i met there. such as white turban male students, robe female students, uncle, aunty, grandpa, grandma.. and many more.. the forum is all about Isra' Mikraj and how it is really important for todays ummah..besides that, the penalist that have been invited for that program are Ustaz Roslan, Ustaz Zamri and last but not least Prof.Yusuf (one of Malaysian scientist) . they are explaning about the importance,concequences,lessons of Isra' wa Mikraj.. i am a bit frustrated at that night because i cannot give full attention during their talk. my mind was every where.. only at half of the talk, then i am realize that i am not giving an attention towards it. when i realized that i am starting istighfar promising to myself that it would not be the same thing.. again..and again next time... especially during at majliz ilmu.. -_-

July 26, 2009- Come to rotate the job as a head of taaruf new intake again. in sunday morning, i came late for duty. many things that need to be done during the morning before opening registration for new comers to iic. since last week, i had already gave the responsibility to representative of two club that incharged on the day of taaruf to choose the committees that going to help src to handle the new intake. unfortunetly, only one out of ten come during the day of taaruf intake. i am doing all the committees job alone. going up at level 3 to take all such things for taaruf intake and going down to the great hall..the place where the taaruf intake was..again..to arrange the taaruf file and paste the signage... deep in my heart wanted to screem already.. still can be patience with what happen... luckily Sir Zaki lend his hand..and same goes with other lecturers who were kind and tend to give their help..praise to Allah.. it is such terrible intake that already happen in my life.. hopefully for future intake the committees are more responsible and committed towards their job given and also reminder to the leader who is playing fool with time!

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